Unfortunately nobody loves the darkness, how can you love someone if you can't embrace their dark side.Seeking the depths of you. the vastness of you. and embracing even the darkness. No surface level shit.
Life with any narcissist IS just AN ILLUSION. There are no true feelings behind that life on their end. They can rip your heart and feelings, your world apart around you without no warning and no remorse for what they've done.
or just learn to stay sober? Alcohol is overrated. I live my life alcohol free-it can do terrible things to your life and I won't let it ruin mine. Besides, pushing for more athlete sponsorships, hydration is key!