It always comes back to 3 things when seeking true Santosha (contentment, happiness, wholeness) Listening to your inner voice (soul). Having the courage to live fearlessly (even though every part of your subtle and physical body is trembling).
Have you found that person? I believe there is only one person that will ever truly make you feel this way. and once you have you will never feel that way again about anyone no one will ever compare again