You have pinned for over a year about being glad you ended it and so he could fix his relationship. Like you should be given an award lmao dont you know that helping a married man cheat is the definition of toxic? Youre a fucking joke.
One of the hardest decisions you can make is to remove yourself from a toxic relationship with your parent. At some point you have to acknowledge the verbal and mental abuse they put you through even if they refuse to take accountability and move on.
Toxic people will hurt you and then try to make you feel bad that you are mad or hurt or upset. It's known as blame shifting. Instead of taking accountability for their own actions, they blame you for "having feelings." Abusive people do this