Not pretend, but our friendship's over now (or maybe not, I don't know) and messaging him to tell him that I miss him is just inappropriate. I doubt it'll be fine for him to be my friend again. Knowing him.
"You didn't love her. You didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her. Because you don't destroy people you love" - Grey's Anatomy
Another pinner said: OMG .I did not write this one but it is so True. I was his best friend for 5 yrs and he threw me away. :( (my sentiment exactly) this is the exactly same thing that happened to me😭