from 'A Grief Observed' by C. Lewis first published in 1961 under the pséudonŷm 'N. Clerk', as Lewis wished to avoid identification as the author; it was subsequently re-published under his own name after his death in
Lewis quotes - When I lay these questions before God I get no answer. But a rather special sort of 'No answer.' It is not the locked door. It is more like a silent, certainly not uncompassionate, gaze. As though He shook His head not in refusal .